Almost Two!

I am just sitting here watching Skylar eat her lunch---unsuccessful at the lasagna so now it is apple slices and string cheese---thinking how different life was 2 years ago.

Two years ago: I was waiting impatiently for the next 4 weeks to fly by. I was sweating to death, my toes were so swollen I didn't have spaces between them--but I felt healthy and strong. But I was impatient.

Today: I want the next four weeks to crawl. To think my little baby is a toddler. My sweet 9 lb angel is now a full-of-energy 26 lbs of love and hormones.

Two years ago: I couldn't wait (impatient again) until we could go to the park and swing, read a book together, and have lunch of apples and cheese.

Today: I miss that little baby who was happy to cuddle with Mom all day. When my body produced all she needed. When I wondered which she would like better: Swings or Slides.

Two years ago: I wondered who she would become. Who she would look like. I wanted a cup of coffee and couldn't wait until we could go to Starbucks and I could sip my mocha while she drank a cup of chocolate milk

Today: I can't even fathom expecting my Skylar-bug to sit still long enough for me to sip anything. I know she is full of boundless energy that she would prefer to expel outside. She loves to laugh and talk and read (but not with Mommy). She is an independant spirit---and I couldn't be prouder.

I think about how the last 2 years flew by, how the next 3 will fly as well and then she will be in kindergarten and not need/want her Mommy as much. She will have friends to hug and talk to. Teachers to kiss her boo-boos and read to her. And I think I won't take those 3 years for granted. I know Skylar will always need her Mommy (I still need mine!). But until then...I will live for and love every second. I will cherish the moments of sweet love....and even the moments of tantrums and hormones. Because life is too short---and too fast.

It's almost your birthday Skylar-bug---but you are still my baby until then! I love you!